Tuesday, 23 November 2010

The Big P


No again, this is dae’n ma heid in!  I mean how hard can it be to get pregnant? For god’s sake I’ve had four kids (well, kind of). Let’s not go there eh?  That new doctor, he says give it time Mrs Mullen, tae be honest , I don’t know if he’s up to the job, seems nice enough an that. That smear test he gave me last month , well, let’s just say he wis a wee bit rough if ye know what I mean girls. That procedure’s no a breeze at the best of times, I think Dr Brodie might have been a chimney sweep in another life . Believe me you men have it easy.
  Thing is I’m beginning to get an awful feeling that it’s Jimmy, his wee soldiers seem tae have run oot of ammunition. Well, he better get a delivery soon or he’s getting fired doon tae the doc, nae  messin’
            I saw it on the telly that men in their  forties have erectile what dae ye call it?
and  it can be quite easily fixed. Seems hell of a young to be having problems in that department. I mean he wis daei’n  awright when wee Madonna popped oot.
            Am I jist being too greedy? Well I don’t think so , it’s no been easy this last wee while, what  wae  Bob  runnin’ after that  no good faither of his. I cannae believe he would dae that,  kids eh?  I blame masel, should have been honest, whit wiz I thinking? You jist do yer best.
            Sometimes I think we should get oot of Shieldinch, make a new start, gie Madonna some weans her own age to play with. Och  am so confused, ma hormones are all over the place, I jist wish that wee stick wid turn blue and gie us all a break.
      If I’ve goat tae listen to that Eileen goin’ on aboot how bloomin  up the duff she is I’ll throw up.
Mind you a did throw up a wee bit this morning, better jist dae one more check jist in case. Well girls ye would wouldn’t ye?
           
           
           
            

Thursday, 18 November 2010

The big C

I know, I know, nae need tae tell me, I've gone and done it again. I'm pushing my Bubba away and you'll hate me for it but I cannae deal wae him right now. I cannae deal wae any of them tae be honest, , I mean who dae they think they are? There's Bob holding court in ma hoose like the United Nations or somethin' I know I got a wee bit carried away, I nearly woke the wean but they two, the wicked witch and the wicked bitch they've fair ripped ma knittin' and Jimmy sittin' there like a big tube I mean...Och I'm no even goin' there . Today definitely felt like the mornin' after the night before. I might as well have had a hangover I couldnae face anything tae eat. Tae be honest I couldnae think aboot anythin' else apart fae that  brown letter on the door mat this mornin'. Good job I got up first otherwise that wid have been mair explaining . It has tae be serious, I mean the same afternoon I'm sittin' at the hospital. How often does that happen? I'm no blamin' the Doc but he needed tae come clean wae me last week instead of tryin' tae pretend that nothing wis wrong. ye think a doctor wid know that ye can look stuff up on the Internet. I wish I hudnae bothered. I never got a wink of sleep thinkin' aboot ma Auntie Jean and poor wee Peggy, and now it looks like it's it's ma turn.
Och there wis a wee wummin' sat next tae me in the hospital , I felt like she wanted tae speak tae me but I just couldnae my throat wis that dry, I couldnae even look at her, she must have been goin' through what I'm going through. I jist thought, please let them take me first so I can get out of here and get back tae wee Madonna; wee soul.